i’m not a writer, i just work as one
One of the lessons you learn very early on if you’re engaged in creative pursuits is that self-doubt will be a constant, unshakeable companion. I’m not a good writer, but that’s okay. Someday, I will be. I try not to see mediocrity as a fixed fate I must resign myself to forever, and so it doesn’t scare me too much. It’s a survival tactic, really, this hope fueled-perseverance. “I’ll get better”, I tell myself often - sometimes at the close of a weary day where despite my best efforts not much gets done, other times when I read a compelling piece of writing and wish it were mine. With conscious effort, I’ve grown to believe this simple affirmation (and when that feels hard, my writing from three years ago serves as an effective reminder).
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